Semi-Secluded Park Bench, Monday afternoon
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hasaknightjobMarc couldn't be in the apartment, was the thing.
He didn't want to be anywhere. Marc Spector had solid method to his coping mechanisms and they all boiled down to one concept: just don't. Don't be there. Don't deal.
Only running away wasn't an option because Marc had to consider Steven. And handing the body over to Steven was definitely not an option because as bad as this week was for Marc for Steven it was going to be a thousand times worse.
No prize for guessing if that was Marc's fault, of course.
The Steven of it all was why the apartment was a no go. Too much there that was Steven, too much that was personal. Marc was trying not to deal with memories, thank you, he didn't need help with the reminders.
So he went somewhere that meant nothing to him, which was a quiet bench in the park. And he went there with his last option for coping mechanisms, which was currently contained in a paper bag wrapped bottle at his side.
Maybe if he was lucky he and Steven wouldn't wake up until Sunday.
[For thems who know who they are. Warning for potential sensitive topics in addition to the unhealthy use of alcohol. More specific warnings will go up as needed. Safe for broadcast unless otherwise noted.]
He didn't want to be anywhere. Marc Spector had solid method to his coping mechanisms and they all boiled down to one concept: just don't. Don't be there. Don't deal.
Only running away wasn't an option because Marc had to consider Steven. And handing the body over to Steven was definitely not an option because as bad as this week was for Marc for Steven it was going to be a thousand times worse.
No prize for guessing if that was Marc's fault, of course.
The Steven of it all was why the apartment was a no go. Too much there that was Steven, too much that was personal. Marc was trying not to deal with memories, thank you, he didn't need help with the reminders.
So he went somewhere that meant nothing to him, which was a quiet bench in the park. And he went there with his last option for coping mechanisms, which was currently contained in a paper bag wrapped bottle at his side.
Maybe if he was lucky he and Steven wouldn't wake up until Sunday.
[For thems who know who they are. Warning for potential sensitive topics in addition to the unhealthy use of alcohol. More specific warnings will go up as needed. Safe for broadcast unless otherwise noted.]
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 01:55 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 02:17 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 02:20 am (UTC)Marc looked at Liz. "And - and that doesn't matter. I can take it. That's what I do. He gets the good life. That - that's how it works."
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 03:17 am (UTC)She wasn’t sure if it worked that way or what she’d do if Steven found on his own but maybe it would help Marc if she just sat and listened to him.
Then she heard the rest of what he was saying, “You deserve to have a good life too,” Liz said gently, “Steven wants that for you,” she added.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 03:27 am (UTC)Sadly he wouldn't have been much more articulate about this if he was sober. Frankly he probably would've stuck with not talking at all.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 03:34 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 03:39 am (UTC)Marc shook his head, silently acknowledging that he knew these days his luck at keeping Steven under lock and key only lasted so long.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 06:18 am (UTC)She knew the odds of it happening weren’t great but it could maybe help if Marc did try and talk to someone and she knew he wouldn’t want to see a psychiatrist.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 06:23 am (UTC)"He won't," Marc said. He made a gesture of frustration, the movement unsteady even as the emotion was sharp. "It's half the damn problem. He won't talk to me. Not about this."
And the hell of it was Marc couldn't entirely say Steven was wrong to think this was a topic Marc couldn't handle.
Though that did raise a suggestion. "He might talk to you."
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 06:32 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 06:34 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 06:37 am (UTC)She knew it wasn’t likely but she still wanted Marc to know he could reach out, the same way he had told her she could reach out to him if she needed help.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 06:39 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 06:48 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 06:54 am (UTC)