Semi-Secluded Park Bench, Monday afternoon
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hasaknightjobMarc couldn't be in the apartment, was the thing.
He didn't want to be anywhere. Marc Spector had solid method to his coping mechanisms and they all boiled down to one concept: just don't. Don't be there. Don't deal.
Only running away wasn't an option because Marc had to consider Steven. And handing the body over to Steven was definitely not an option because as bad as this week was for Marc for Steven it was going to be a thousand times worse.
No prize for guessing if that was Marc's fault, of course.
The Steven of it all was why the apartment was a no go. Too much there that was Steven, too much that was personal. Marc was trying not to deal with memories, thank you, he didn't need help with the reminders.
So he went somewhere that meant nothing to him, which was a quiet bench in the park. And he went there with his last option for coping mechanisms, which was currently contained in a paper bag wrapped bottle at his side.
Maybe if he was lucky he and Steven wouldn't wake up until Sunday.
[For thems who know who they are. Warning for potential sensitive topics in addition to the unhealthy use of alcohol. More specific warnings will go up as needed. Safe for broadcast unless otherwise noted.]
He didn't want to be anywhere. Marc Spector had solid method to his coping mechanisms and they all boiled down to one concept: just don't. Don't be there. Don't deal.
Only running away wasn't an option because Marc had to consider Steven. And handing the body over to Steven was definitely not an option because as bad as this week was for Marc for Steven it was going to be a thousand times worse.
No prize for guessing if that was Marc's fault, of course.
The Steven of it all was why the apartment was a no go. Too much there that was Steven, too much that was personal. Marc was trying not to deal with memories, thank you, he didn't need help with the reminders.
So he went somewhere that meant nothing to him, which was a quiet bench in the park. And he went there with his last option for coping mechanisms, which was currently contained in a paper bag wrapped bottle at his side.
Maybe if he was lucky he and Steven wouldn't wake up until Sunday.
[For thems who know who they are. Warning for potential sensitive topics in addition to the unhealthy use of alcohol. More specific warnings will go up as needed. Safe for broadcast unless otherwise noted.]
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-03 09:02 pm (UTC)Steven had not been hanging out with the boyfriend. Not after lunch on Friday anyway.
Marc stared ahead, his thoughts going on their own wandering path. "What do you guys do, anyway?"
There'd be enough context for that to make sense to Stark eventually, really.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-03 09:50 pm (UTC)"What do who do? Me? When?"
At least Stark was used to people not making sense. Stark often did not make sense himself, except to himself.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-03 11:34 pm (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-03 11:41 pm (UTC)"Why do you ask?" He was getting an idea, certainly, but it also seemed like it might be helpful to Marc if he spoke.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-03 11:47 pm (UTC)"What happens if you don't do it?" Marc asked. He wasn't looking at anything in particular so it was possible he was asking the universe as much as he was Stark. Though he did follow it with a vague gesture and say, "The - prayers."
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-03 11:54 pm (UTC)You didn't want to hear about the time he felt 10,000 of his people die and blamed himself, right Marc? You had problems of your own.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 12:16 am (UTC)"Couldn't do it," Marc said, shaking his head. He made another gesture to indicate what Stark had just described. "Any of it. Couldn't do it."
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 12:22 am (UTC)"And you don't have to say them. If you don't want to. Do...do you want to tell me about it?"
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 12:44 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 12:58 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 01:06 am (UTC)"Nobody," Marc said, because Stark was a friend and Marc still had awareness enough to realize he should probably clarify nobody had died right that second. Of course once he'd put it that way, it was natural to continue with, "That's what it was supposed to be. Steven - he was fine. Supposed to be nobody. Everything is perfect, and fine, and happy."
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 01:28 am (UTC)He would have heard if something had happened to Steven, wouldn't he? And Marc wouldn't be dancing around that so much.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 01:52 am (UTC)Marc rubbed his eyes but ignore that. Clearly dust or allergens in the air.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 02:04 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 02:09 am (UTC)"He knows." Marc grimaced, the expression entirely one of disappointment in himself. "I fucked up. I was so pissed and he kept pushing. Now he's all twisted because he knows and he doesn't want to hurt me and - fuck. That's not how it works, Steven."
Steven wasn't awake to hear that. Marc was saying that to the air, basically.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 02:18 am (UTC)Clearly someone had died and it was someone important but not someone Marc seemed to be mourning.
"And what isn't how what works?"
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 02:22 am (UTC)"I take the pain," Marc said, gesturing with his hands to indicate two entirely separate things. "He gets the good life. The happy one. That's how it worked for - for years."
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 02:32 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 02:36 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 02:41 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 02:47 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 02:56 am (UTC)Stark wasn't sure how he could help when he still wasn't sure what had set Marc off this way.
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 03:05 am (UTC)Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 03:10 am (UTC)He tapped his mask once, gently. "Share a few thoughts. But I can't take them away."
Re: Talk with Marc
Date: 2022-10-04 03:24 am (UTC)"There's blackouts," Marc said. He waved his fingers by his head, indicating the insides were scrambled. "Holes. It's a freaking mess. But Steven - he shouldn't have to remember. I wish he could forget. He wouldn't have to - "
Marc looked at Stark thoughtfully, like things Stark had said were falling into place. Which, as drunk as Marc was, might actually be the time delay it had taken for the information to have an impact. "He might need you. The prayer... thing. He - he might want that."
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